I’m a little sad today, and I don’t know why. This pain in my chest just happened out of no where and started to grow. I wonder if it will go away, maybe yes, maybe no. I hold a knife in my hands and think back on an old life once forgot. The pain started to grow bigger when I did this, almost to the point where I could not stand it. I put the knife down trying to forget all the pain I felt in that old life, the life before her……..Then remember why I left that life of pain. It was because of her that I could see the light, but now she is gone, and so is the light. The world of clouds and darkness is coming back; I wonder how I will handle it this time. Will I take the same easy route out again or will I push on thou it. I guess only time will tell. I’m just a little sad………..